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Life's like having a cup of tea,

you sit by the window,

lift the cup and take a fresh sip,

only to realise somebody forgot to put sugar on it.

Too lazy to go for it,

you somehow struggle through that sugarless cup.

Till you discover undissolved sugar crystals sitting at the bottom...

That how life is...

We do not make efforts to value what is with and around us...

So, look around,

maybe the sweetness you are looking for closer than you think...

cute cute..

This is ah cute - my new family member. It is 2 years old, like to eat KFC popcorn and Wall's Moo ice cream. Ah cute will bark if there are no people around it, don't know why.. Um, maybe it scare to stay alone. Ah cute got a bit tien ji tien ji de, follow us no matter where we go. Its never feel tired, active all the times. But its drink a lot and eat a lot, automatically, pang sai and niao niao also a lot. Haiz, my sister start complain that ah cute luan luan bian bian. Adohai.. Mr. Cute ar, please he zuo yi dian la, fang bian at the place that we ready for you, don't simply ikut your perasaan, luan luan pang sai.. If not that one ah ching wanna pukul you liao lo..

mY dEar fRieNd

first semester
you are first friend in class..although we know each other in orientation week but never know that we are coursemate..very happy when knowing you are my coursemate, the feeling just like i meet my family member in a strange place..we become best friends since first semester..very close friends..i know your happiness and sadness..we share the experiences together..we have the same thought..

second semester
we still the same..joining ghost zai..got many many conflicts with our new gangs..but, we still very close..

third semester
still got many many problems with ghost zai..and you have problems with her..i am still at your side and support you..in these semester too, you start close with him..

fourth semester
you two become best friends..very very close, ever close than me..you started forgetting me..forget our friendship..yes, i am jealous, angry and sad..maybe because i loss you, as my best friends..maybe because you are mine, best friends for one and half years, but you shift to him..maybe... ...i also don't understand..but, i thought that if he can become your listener and make you happy, i don't mind..as long as you are happy..

fifth semester
many things happened, full with sadness...i lost many many things, include you, my best friend..in this semester, i saw and realize many things too...i realize that many things are change, include you...i thought i am your best friend..but, the reality is no..i am still try to protect you from those people, but you don't..you never help me to explain it..is it you really don't know or you don't understand me?i try my best to maintain our relationship but you don't..you are forgetting me already...maybe i am not good enough??maybe i just your super super normal friend...maybe you are busy with your new relationship with him...maybe i am a bad people...maybe...i don't know...i no more important to you..when i need you, when i am sad, when i am down, when i am sick, when.....you are not beside me...i am so disappointed..so so so disappointed...so, i choose to let you go..i choose to become your "normal" friend only...i won't put you in my heart anymore...the past beautiful memories just put in my deeply heart...
suddenly, you claim that all of us starting forgetting you...huh, you said i am forgetting you...i really do not understand why you will say so...i wonder that do you ever think that is it we are forgetting you and what is the reasons??is it possible that ALL of us have the same thought and feeling to forget you??is it our fault that forgetting you??and do you ever think that where is the problem??
recently, i have read your blog..you said that you believe in miracle, but, what i want to tell you is don't ever trust in miracle..the words which miracle will happen one day..blaa blaa blaa..all is bullshit!!!i will never and ever believe in miracle anymore..the more you believe, the more you disappointed..you said you hope that all of us will together just like previous semester...i do not sure that your hope will come true or not...but the thing that i am very sure is our friendship already change, the feeling is not the feeling like before...cause i already choose to let our friendship become memories...cause i do not wish to become a friend which you just remember me when you are free and lonely...i feel hurt when you just remember me when you are in trouble or lonely...really hurt...just blame me if you think that it is unfair to you...i don't mind...because maybe it is really is my fault, is my problems...

sorry my dear, i never thought that our friendship will become like this...i also hope that our friendship can till forever, but that just is my dream but not yours...dream, just a dream..never will came true...dream become nothing after we awake from sleep...so, i am stop dreaming already...but, don't worry, you still my friend...i will help you if you need my help...thank you that you have become my best friend for many semester...i appreciate it...best wishes for your studies, new relationship, friendship... ...everything...

last semester
i don't what will happen..cause life is unpredictable!!!just hope that i will become more mature and tough...